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(no subject) [Oct. 28th, 2006|12:30 pm]
天后 風塵
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
blind_wind goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as The Dearly Departed.
elena_andrews gives you 3 mottled green root beer-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
estharian gives you 5 pink licorice-flavoured jawbreakers.
quistis_trepes tricks you! You get a rock.
renothegreat gives you 8 mauve cola-flavoured gumdrops.
rinoaheartily_ gives you 10 tan chocolate-flavoured gumdrops.
rock_solid_ tricks you! You get a rotten egg.
rude_ gives you 17 light orange licorice-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
seductivesniper gives you 1 brown lemon-flavoured gummy worms.
storm_at_sea tricks you! You lose 34 pieces of candy!
the_d_committee gives you 14 light blue coconut-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
blind_wind ends up with 24 pieces of candy, a rock, and a rotten egg.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.


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Circa Day 18 [Sep. 10th, 2006|10:42 pm]
天后 風塵
Work has been fine. It's something to do instead of sitting in a room of four bare walls and a second hand mattress laying on the floor. I find myself more often than not sleeping on one of the ceiling beams because it's more comfortable, but that's besides the point.

I made a little over a quarter-million gil in tips alone tonight. More than I'd ever make as a SeeD, but that's a life long gone and over now. It's funny. I actually miss being told what to do every day. Simple and some would say a meaningless existence, but it served to prove a point about how expendable people are; myself included. But at least it made sense. I had purpose and reason back then. Now what am I? A former mercenary that's now taking care of tables at a rather questionable establishment. My ancestors are not amused...

I'll honestly say I'm lost. I know Rai means well, but he's trying to find himself out in this would just as much as I am. I thought I knew what I wanted. Tried to make it clear to myself and to others, but it ended up in more confusion. I can't handle things that don't make sense. There are days where I'm honestly afraid of what I see inside of me; I'd sit down and look at myself in the mirror and wonder who the woman without the eyepatch in the reflection was.

I've allowed myself to become so weak in an attempt to be accepted in the eyes of others.

I had finally become a SeeD, and I threw it away to follow him. And now I ask myself if he was ever worth it. Am I expendable to him as well?

I just don't know. I just don't know.
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*cough* [Jan. 30th, 2006|03:53 pm]
天后 風塵
This has nothing to do with my new job.

Your Stripper Song Is

Master and Servant by Depeche Mode

"There's a new game
We like to play you see
A game with added reality
You treat me like a dog
Get me down on my knees"

Yawn, dancing is so boring without a little spice.
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(no subject) [Dec. 30th, 2005|07:57 pm]
天后 風塵
[Current Agitation |crankyDisgruntled]

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Dedicate my life to making someone else's horribly miserable.



Get your resolution here




Seifer, I do believe that one was meant for you.
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2005|04:11 pm]
天后 風塵
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
blind_wind goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Sorceress Adel.
eyes_on_laguna tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
quistis_trepes tricks you! You get a rock.
relm_of_fantasy gives you 16 green tropical-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
rinoaheartily_ gives you 18 tan chocolate-flavoured gumdrops.
rock_solid_ tricks you! You get a rotten egg.
seductivesniper gives you 13 brown lemon-flavoured gummy worms.
silentandstrong tricks you! You lose 21 pieces of candy!
storm_at_sea tricks you! You lose 19 pieces of candy!
the_d_committee gives you 1 light blue coconut-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
toocute_selphie gives you 14 red cola-flavoured wafers.
blind_wind ends up with 22 pieces of candy, a piece of paper, a rock, and a rotten egg.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.


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(no subject) [Jan. 17th, 2005|11:17 pm]
天后 風塵
Location: Balamb Garden
Character: Fuujin, Dr. Kadowaki (NPC), Headmaster Cid Kramer (NPC)
Reply: Quistis, Squall, Selphie, Zell, etc.
Rating: Mid-High
Day: 10 Years Ago

I Can Be Cruel, I Don't Know WhyCollapse )
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